the world we live in is fucking cruel and it sucks, everytime i start to be happy again something always comes along and is like "hey, you're happy and we can't have that so i'm going to fuck everything up for you"... i hate this, i hate hating myself for everything, for everyone i've hurt. i feel like i always manage to push everyone away no matter what. no one really knows how i feel or even fully understands either, this is everything i feel and how sorry i am to everyone i've accidently pushed away, im so fucking sorry. //
